Good Friday

Good friday is here and it reminds us of how Jesus died on the cross for man's sake who is so undeserving. It reflects on the splendour and great love that Christ has for us. Let us praise him with thanksgiving and with gratitude with all our hearts so that he may be lifted high.

This is an awesome and amazing song.

Jesus, You Alone - Tim Hughes

Jesus, you alone shall be my first love, my first love
The secret place and Highest place shall be yours, shall be yours
To your Throne I'll bring devotion
May it be a sweeter sound
Lord this heart is reaching for you now

So I set my sights upon you
Set my life upon your grace
Never looking to another way

You alone will be my passion
Jesus you will be my song
You will find me longing after you..

Day and night I lift my eyes to seek you, to seek you
Hungry for a glismpe of you in glory, in glory
To your Throne I'll bring Devotion
May it be the sweeter sound
Lord this heart is reaching for you now

Unsignificant Thoughts

Tears have already dried up. Silence invaded all around me. I sat on the bed, in the darkness. My mind whirling into blankness and confusion. Still recovering from astonshing facts that shoke my mind, trying hard to take it. It was then I wondered what's best for me.

I always thought that I knew alot of life aspects. I thought that I knew everything to lead life the best way it should be. However, I've realised that everything so different now. Those so called life aspects are simply thoughts resulting of from self-delusion.

I pondered about everything. I thought about the argument I had with my brother. I thought about how I got to know Christ. I thought about the reason why I'm brought into this world. Why must I go through all these things? Why must these things come into my life when I thought that I am living life in perfection and changing for the better? Why?

I pondered about all these things for a long time. My mind was in complete confusion and I couldn't thought about how these things could happen in my life. I thought it was unfair. I thought I'm doing it for nothing. I even have the idea of giving up my faith. I just couldn't get an answer to all my questions. For now, it just show how wrong I can be.

I realised I was completely living in a world of my own. I didn't cared much about other people. Even my brother. I thought that he was always lecturing me for the sake of doing so. Or perhaps showing his authority, looking down on me. I thought that my relationship with Christ is so weak that I am going to give up on my faith, as I always thought that it was easier being the bad guy. I thought that Christ had abandoned me and given up on me, such a insginificant being. I thought I was all alone. I thought that people wouldn't care about me.

All these thoughts came into me because of a arguement. An arguement yet because of another small little thing. My LDC II Camp is tommorow yet from the start I never thought of going. In fact, I have been missing BB for quite a long period of time. Concidentally, it clashes with the Children's camp in church. I was pondering hard of deciding which to go. I chose to go to help in the Children's camp as I thought it would be a excellent opportunity for me to improve the relationship with the youths, so that I would be good friends with them and learn their examples of displaying christian character. Still, I did not tell the leaders that I wil be going as I have not decided of which to go yet. Deep down in me, I wanted to help in the children's camp. It was then my brother confronted me to go to the LDC camp. I lost my temper almost instaneously. I thought why was my brother so stubborn and kept on forcing me to do things his way. He then talk sense into me and I went to lock myself in the room, thinking of the things he had said.

It is then I realised how wrong I am. I am living in a world of my own and I can't deny the facts. I have very little friends since young. My attitude towards friends were just secondary and all I could think is always myself. My friends are of very little importance to me. Moreover, I didn't get along well with them thus I gave up the idea of salvaging those broken friendships.

I have since realised how wrong I am and how bad my attitude is. What my brother said was absolutely right. I AM LIVING IN A WORLD OF MY OWN. BEING SO SELFISH, I COULDN'T BE BOTHERED ABOUT HOW OTHERS FEEL. And yet I keep wondering what I did to annoy my friends so much that they kept avoiding me. I kept on wondering what is their problem yet it lies with myself. I am too self centred. I have to change. Some of them were even kind enough to ask me to change my attitude and they can't stand me. I was annoyed by thier bluntness and shoo them off, one by one. I am afraid that people will get hold of my fears and my weakness to mock at me. Yet I must understand that everyone have their shortcomings and one will have to learn to get over them so as to move onward with life. I've realised this is what life is about. You can't be a loner. You have to learn to communicate with others and improve the social relationship with them. I've tried all these yet I give up too easily. I'm discouraged by the smallest action they did to me yet I think I've been 100 times irritating to them. I laughed at people's stupidity, without realising my own ignorance.

I have to get over all these. I have to start afresh. I have to repent to go back to God. I have to make massive changes to my usual lifestyle so as to be transformed.

I've learned something valuable. I have to learn to put down my pride. All changes have to be accompanied by my own actions and determination. I always blame others and the last person I will find fault with is myself. I would have to stop deluding myself and learn to accept the facts which I have upon. I'll have to listen to others, as our own feelings can be so deluding. Indeed, I now see God's plan for me. He arranged all these to happen in my life so that I can learn from it. Praise the Lord !

His plan for you is flawless and perfect. If you can't see his plan, trust his heart.

His sacrifice on the calvary

Jesus Christ, I think upon your sacrifice;
Is it worthwhile saving us humans;
Is it even worth your effort;
To die on the cross;
Crucified at the cross of calvary;
To show us the power of your love;
To save us from sin?

I looked upon the cross where you died;
Humbled by your mercy and grace...

C3�n nhiều bỡ ngỡ và không thể tránh khỏi bị shock rồi. Mình hiểu chuyện đó chứ, lúc trước mình cũng vậy thôi chứ có hơn gì. Bây giờ thì mình chịu nhục nhiều cũng quen rồi nên có thể...nhăn răng cười được rồi :D Nghĩ lại mình cũng không đúng, mình phải thông cảm và backup cho em nhiều hơn chứ không nên chỉ complain việc em dành hết thời gian cho công việc...

Who else is there to blame?

Well, I bought this upon myself.
I bought this upon myself.
Whom Shall I to blame?

Still, I thank God for your saving grace.



''I will lift up my eyes to the hills. Where shall my help come from? My help comes form the LORD, who made heavens and earth.''
Psalms 121 NIV

I will put my trust in you, and be assured of your holy presence.
For I know your faithfulness is unfailing and unwavering.

''Never will I forsake you; never will I leave you. For the LORD is with me, Whom shall I fear?''
Hebrews 13:6 NIV

Forgone my laziness!

Empower me, like a rushing river flowing to the sea, LORD send your holy spirit flowing to me.

It may be time to wonder.

Sometimes, it simply dawn on me that what this life has for me.
Life has been rather and depressing and hectic.
Exams, tests, revision.
Church expriences hasn't been very fruitful.
I'm drifting from God, day by day.
I've withnessed a friend drifting from Him.
Tried my best to consolate him.
In the end, he simply gave up.
His spiritual walk taught me something.
Something so important.
When we have a heart to repent, we will repent. No matter what cirumstances,
what stage of life you are at, and what kind of life you are leading.
I've also learnt that this world is so deluding and disturbing.
People can be a good influence and a bad influence.
What so called friendship can be such a fluke.
When will we ever change?
And not repeat our mistakes?
When we will let our hearts be still,
and be sincere to realise our mistakes,
and asked God to change them?
and to tame down our sinful nature
Only when our hearts are still;
and the desire to change.
Desire to change.
Desire to be a better person.
Desire to lead a christ-like life.

This songs reminds me not to let go when you are experiencing diffculties in your life

You Are God Alone - Philips Craig and Dean

You are not a God created
By Humans hand
You are not a God dependent
On any mortal man
You are not a God in need of
Anything we can give
By your plan
That's just the way it is

You are God alone
In the good times and bad
You were on your throne
You are God alone
And right now
In the good times and bad
You were on your throne
You are God Alone

You're the only God whose power
None can content
You're the only God whose name and praise
Will never end
You're the ony God whose worthy
Anything we can give
You are God
That's just the way it is

You are God alone
In the good times and bad
You were on your throne
You are God alone
And right now
In the good times and bad
You were on your throne
You are God alone

Unchangeable
Unshakeable
Unstoppable
That's what you are

Be still and know that he is God.
Does chances come by so easily?

Just Remember that God is in control.
( I'm a really bad person. A really sinful man that is not worthy of God's grace.)

This is school life.

ARGHH... School started off boringly. Is that such a word? Lol.
First was the freaking boring Literature. ZZz. I don't detest literature, but the way the teacher teachs bores me. She can continue for not stopping over the whole periods, reading whatever found on the book. LOL! Everyone was like sleeping in class lor. So here am I, writing craps on the text book.

This is what I wrote.
''The clocks ticks life away,
the boring literature teacher crapping away,
When the bell rings, I'm awaked!'' =D

Lol, don't laugh at me, at least I survived 35 minutes of literature without sleeping.^^
As she continuing teaching, Mr Quek the DM came in. LOLS. For your information, he was there to cut hair for those people with long hair.This was the account.
Mr Quek : You, Come out. ( pointing fingers)
Class : Unusual attention and slience
Those being called out : ( was like what the hell) ; walking out reluctantly of course.
Mdm Kaur : See, I told ya' not to sleep in class. ( softly)
LOL! for a moment, I thought Mr Quek come here to catch people sleeping in class. Chey, cut hair only..ZZz Heng ar, I kept my hair super short, so not a problem with me.^^

Then the day continues. Lessons were alright. Interesting enough to keep me awake. You might think I'm that type who will sleep in lessons, I'm not lor. Except literature^^
So Recess came. I didn't go for recess though. Was staying in class crapping with the damm prefect trying to chase us out of the classroom. We argued with them, and its really fun doing that, especially with a group of people. Unity is power^^ Kk, I admit we gave lame excuses like '' OH, I forgot my wallet lah. I go back take also cannot meh?'' or ''I never take my water bottle. I go back class take.''
LOL. Yeah .I suppose the prefect is so damm pissed off with us. Good for her lor. So unreasonable. We were being chased by her, running up and down the stairs. In the end, we hid in the toliet for a while, came out, and ended up chased by here again. zzz. Basically we were playing hide and seek with prefects. WE OWN THEM!!

Whitley prefects sucks ( some)
Lame.
So damm act.
Abuse Authority
So bossy
Nosey
Whatever lah!
zzz.
After having fun, lessons started. Lessons were okay only. Neither boring nor interesting.
Then after school, all 'zhao' already( means run away in hokkien). So fast sia. HaHa. Our class so not 'on' want..zzz. At least find something to play.=P
So I went home, slept through out the whole afternoon. Had dinner, and spending my time here blogging and changing the skin.
It was normal routine. Nothing special.
Actually, Wednesdays are often boring due to a lot of factors. Having to do literature first thing in the morning, and a lot of double periods. It drags on with contact time. Lol.
I have a lot of personal feelings to talk about, but I won't post it here. No mood to do so.
So cya next time with me blogging^^
Think I gotta start studying for exams, they are round the corner.
I know you are wondering whether when is the next time I'll blog again.
Signing off...

Life, a repetition

Hi, I'm back from a long blogging break dude. I didn't blog cause' I don't feel like it, and it's true. I'm super inspired by some of the blogs that I have seen and here am I blogging again; if you don't mind my weak grammar.
What's your outlook on life? bleak? boring? meaningless? Well, let me blog of some of my personal feelings.
I came from a primary school which was chinese-value based and the emphasis is on chinese values. This is our school motto. Dilligence. Sincerity. Kindness. Courage.
You may think that it's old-fasioned, out-dated and even lame. All I have to say that you're wrong if you think about it carefully. Deep down, don't we agree that these values do play a important part in our lives? It is so relevant, and it NEVER fades, never, regardless of how our society changes, and how different our mindset can be.
I've noticed that I've been slacking, and so is others. BUT sometimes we can be so selfish and self-centred that we only care about ourself and we only know how to criticise others, never ourself. YOUSELF, YOURSELF and YOURSELF. Isn't it sad to see people begging for money or food along streets, where people just ignore them and walk away, worst still, jeered and joke about them. You might ask, what it is gotta do with the values then? Most of the time, kindness and compassion is often what we lack. We are humans so imperfect and selfish, that we don't bother to care about others for we are only bothered enough with ourself, our own welfare.
I'm just simply saddened and discouraged whenever I think of we humans being so cold -blooded and so for themselves only. We ourself do not even know what we are doing, because we are so influenced by the corrupted society and it is so part-of human- nature to do that.
Well, more of the values come with a story behind it, and I won't blog about it as it will be damm long for you guys to read.
After all, life is nothing but a struggle between fame and glory. Everybody want to achieve something for themselves. Again, THEMSELVES. Can't we human beings just be more magnimous and care about what others feel? No wonder hyprocrites are increasing.
Well, I'm so taking things for granted. Yesterday, when my Dad was waking me up for school, I feel damm irritated by two alarm clocks ringing at the same time by my ear drums. In a fit of anger, I smashed them on the floor. And why on earth do I do such things, which was sinful enough to hurt other feelings? Even I myself don't have the answer. Such a small gesture can simply hurt my Dad and there could be bad blood between us altogether. Kind enough, he said nothing. Sometimes, it really make me wonder why do we do things without thinking. He is the one who provide for the family, the one who paid all the bills, the one who keep the family close together. How can I do such things?
Even though we do think about it and repent, sooner or later we will find ourself doing the same thing, repeating the same mistake over and over again.
Life is all about repetition, persuing things that makes no sense, being selfish towards our peers and others. Agree? I'm not trying to brainwash you to think about the bad side of life, I'm just speaking the truth of what is happening.
Sometimes I really want to escape out of all these things, but can we? Do we have a chance to do so? We are not even given a chance as anyone else is doing the opposite. Think about it peeps. I think I'll end here.
Sometimes, I think I rather be on my bike forever, cycling my sorrows away.
We wished that we wouldn't think of such things but we still did. Discouraging thoughts.
Finally, the big question we would ask. Is life full of meaning or a meaningless?